I’ve wanted one thing above all else from this blog: to use it as an excuse to better document my life.
When Thomas and I first opened it, I did make an effort. Life events happened (like finding Avery), I took photos of them, and the photos I really loved turned up here. Every so often I’d write a little blurb about what was happening in my life, slack on this blog, then publish a whirlwind of posts when renewed interest (or guilt) struck me.
But the longer time went on, the more I hesitated and refused to let myself hit publish. I’d write, but before I could ever complete a post, two thoughts struck me. 1: Is this post good enough? And 2: Who would even want to see this – would anybody care?
The thing is, when I stand back and think about this blog from a more objective perspective, I know that, 1: The only way I’m going to find my voice on this blog is to publish more. Over time, I’ll find a way to word more personal posts and communicate in way that makes me happy. And 2: I don’t really care if anybody would want to see this; with this blog, I just want to please myself, insofar as documenting my life better goes.
I’ve tried waiting for a muse to strike, I’ve tried writing big posts, small updates, nothing works. So in an attempt to get out of my own head, to take myself off mute, I’m forcing myself to use my voice.
Here’s my goal:
Back when I used Flickr religiously, I once did the 52 week project. I did my best to shoot one nice selfie that I was proud of, and it helped me improve my photography a great deal.
Now I’m going to do something similar on here. Instead of taking a picture every week, though, I’m going to try to take a snapshot every day (though not always/necessarily of myself). And then try to caption it really quickly. At the end of the week, I’ll hit publish on the week’s snapshots in one post.
I hate saying I’m going to do things on the internet. It feels like if I make a promise and don’t deliver, I’m silly for bothering. No one really cares what you intend to do, what they care about is what you actually get out there, as I’ve learned in my many years blogging – so there’s no tangible point to making promises.
But I need to commit to this for myself, and promising it makes it stick a lot better than just giving it a whirl. Because it’s been years that I’ve slacked on documenting my own life, years I’ve wasted not taking the opportunity to refine my own voice, to teach myself through practice to speak clearly about things that are more personal, and less about practical advice.
So lets start…
…with an obligatory bathroom-selfie-including-the-camera shot.
It’s likely I’ll miss days. When I do, I’ll try not to be too hard on myself. But the documenting should be a lot better than before.
Wish me luck!